• Dear 2022, what the hell was that?!

    My 2022 started off with such high hopes, and soooooo many wishes for an incredible year. And it started off much better than I could anticipate. Being chronically Ill, you never know what to expect, but the unexpected is always just lurking right around the corner. And that is what happened to me. I started […]

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  • Views from a hospital bed 🏥

    Views from my hospital room consist of my very sexy fian-bae who has been nothing short of amazing. But that been the only part of this that has been a relief and pleasant. This medical system that America operates under is broken in so many ways. It took 5 ER trips during the month of […]

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  • I was under the influence of pain. -Jhene Aiko, Nobody I have never heard realer words that reflect the life that I have lived and continue to live. Since the age of 4 I have been subjected to an abundance of pain. And when I see baby photos of me it makes me cry. It […]

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  • Sometimes I feel like a motherless child

    That song really sits deep in my soul. From as far back as I can remember, I always felt like my mother hated me. I always felt like I never truly had a mother. I mean, obviously I was born. So I had someone give me life (technically two someones), but I have never truly […]

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  • I’ve now dodged death for a second time, how to unpack this?

    Where do I even begin to start unpacking this round of traumatizing events? May 9th I began experiencing some of the most scary symptoms in a very long time. I din’t know what was happening or what to do. I knew this time was much different than the last time and that I had been […]

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  • Trying on hospital gowns instead of wedding gowns…

    I have been engaged for 2 months and 6 days. And out of those two months and 6 days I have been writhing in some sort of pain. Whether the agony was from the constant inability to stay awake because of the nagging fatigue that I have been facing. Or if it was simply because […]

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  • I’m not obese, yet I need to lose weight for my health?

    I have been told this many times before. But it really hits deep and heavy when it’s coming during a time at which your body is trying to terminate you. I met with my neurologist that looked me dead in my eyes and said “The medication takes time to work, but it is more effective […]

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  • Is that I’m a black woman. The first thing that’s noticed about me is my brown skin and then the assumptions shortly after that. It’s exhausting. I have to work 10x harder to be half as good as anyone else. And I’m exhausted. It’s frustrating because as black women we are held to extremely high […]

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  • When you are near extreme heart break and you can’t take anymore? Is it when you choose to stay in the moment of feeling completely lost and devastated? When did you decide to let go? When you looked me in my face and told me that I wasn’t worth it to you, was that then? […]

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  • It’s crazy when you look at things in hindsight. When you think you knew something or you knew someone and it turns out you really didn’t. Or you tried to forget. Repress. Supress. Hide from it. You were the nicest person I had ever met. Kind.. Gentle.. Loving.. Protective.. But you were also the monster […]

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