Is the most condescending comment we get. Having an invisible illness comes with several invalidating comments and questions. Well why do you sleep so much? Why do you always tell us you are going to the doctor? Gosh you go to the doctor so much! These comments invalidate our whole existence. And we are 100% …
I am not very gentle with myself
And that is something that I am working on every single day. I am the person who doesn't want to fail. And I push myself past my limits because I know that I am only going to achieve my goals if I push myself hard enough to get there. Why am I like this? I …
What is it like?
That question comes up a lot. What is it like? What is it like to be in a relationship with someone or have a relationship with someone who's only goal is to manipulate your reality and destroy you. I know that seems "dramatic" but that is the reality of what it is like to date …
I have to remind myself…..
That I need to advocate for myself. That I need to fight. That I need to eat. And not only do I need to eat but I need to remind myself to eat 3 x a day. Those of you who struggle with chronic illness, anxiety, PTSD, depression, etc. understand what this means. It means …
I try my best to forget….
I try my best to forget all of the things that I’ve been through in my past with my abuse and even thinking further on my medical condition and how growing up I was even subjected to abuse when it came to my genetics. I try my best to forget about how it felt in …
I think about you often….but not the way you think
It has been almost two years since I decided to leave you for my safety and for my mental health. And now more than ever, I think about you......often. But not like you think. You see, since I left you I took my mental health more serious than ever. I went to see not one... …
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On the inside looking out
On the inside looking, oh, where do I begin? I feel like I’ve lost all sense of who I am on the outside because it’s starting to match what I feel like on the inside. My insecurities are piling up. My mind is full all the time and my body feels so damn heavy. And …
I found you through me…
I found you the day I finally decided to choose me. That is when I found you. I manifested every ounce of what you are deep within me. Every. Single. Day. I chose me. I chose me by deciding that the life of struggle and pain was no longer for me. I was raised in …
Depression Season….
THIS ONE'S FOR MY CHIARI WARRIORS AND MY DEPRESSION FIGHTERS 💜 I know it has been awhile since I have posted a blog... and I anticipate more sporadic posting until I can find a way to be more consistent. With the climate of the world, how heavy it is, what is happening every single day.... …
HTLABW: The Re-introduction
Hello All! I know that I have spent a significant amount of time away from you all. And your support from the very beginning to still being here now is incredibly unwavering and so amazing. I have been spending time getting to know the new me. Who is this new Nia Renee? I have been …